This book is the beginning of a series that tells my raw, unfiltered account of what it was like to be in a relationship with someone I came to experience as a covert narcissist. Within these pages, I share the confusion, emotional chaos, and painful revelations that defined that period of my life — including the moment I realised I was involved with someone who was maintaining a hidden long-term partner and multiple relationships with other men, myself among them.
This first instalment traces the early stages of the manipulation: the subtle shifts, the red flags I did not yet recognise, and the psychological toll of loving someone whose intentions were never what they seemed. Writing about my experience became an act of reclaiming my voice and my sanity — even though speaking my truth led to retaliation that, from my perspective, was intended to silence me, including actions that ultimately resulted in my arrest.
This book marks the starting point of a much larger story — my journey through deception, emotional abuse, and betrayal, and the strength it took to confront it all head-on.
This is not about shaming anyone. It is about telling my story exactly as I lived it.
This is where it begins: the truth of what happened to me, and the first step on the path I chose to walk out of the shadows.
Brian Phokeerdoss is a writer whose work stands at the intersection of emotional truth, historical revelation, and personal evolution. His voice is unmistakably introspective — steady, honest, and unafraid to explore the quiet corners of the human experience. Through his writing, Brian creates space for the stories that live beneath the surface: the unseen wounds, the misunderstood identities, the overlooked histories, and the private battles fought in silence.
His work is driven by two intertwined forces:
a deep need to understand the inner world, and
a fierce commitment to telling the truths history tried to erase.
A Writer of Depth, Healing, and Reckoning
Brian’s personal journey — through emotional manipulation, misunderstood childhood, solitude, cultural displacement, and generational wounds — informs the emotional clarity of his work. His writing often confronts subjects many shy away from: narcissistic abuse, masculine vulnerability, family judgment, racial injustice, trauma, and the long, quiet path toward healing.
But at the centre of all his books lies a single message:
growth often begins where silence once lived.
Brian writes for those who have been unseen, unheard, or misread.
For those who feel deeply.
For those who carry empathy without receiving it.
And for those who are ready to evolve at their own pace.