It's all a transaction ...: abstract motivation / essays. self-therapy sessions
About this ebook
The best way ... to describe what i usually call ... nonsense.
Unfortunately ... i really had to negotiate ... again and again.
For everything ... I've wanted.
Even in love stories.
Of course ... it was stupid ... but it was also ... too late.
Much too late.
Cause ... I became tired of doing it.
Tired... because my soul just couldn't do it anymore ... negotiating as a fool ... even for respect and loyalty.
Yeah ... you heard me well.
I was ... a fool.
Feeling ... ruined mentally and emotionally.
But ...
Yeah ... still doing it.
Not understanding the signs.
Refusing to do it.
Meanwhile ... continuing to do it ... and ...
It was all in vain.
I just couldn't get ... what I've wanted.
At least ... not now.
So ... especially in love stories ... it was mainly about failed transactions.
Feeling ... even more than tired.
I believe ... the word "intoxicated" defines everything ... the best way.
And still ... the show itself ... it still goes on.
The same negotiations ... for the bare minimum.
The same failure.
Not realising that ... all it's absurdly.
Pure absurdity.
I had to smile ... discuss ... say what i want ... and if the answer was "NO" ... just disconnect and leave.
Reading properly ... the signs ... and not allow as my soul ... to become tired of what is happening.
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About the author
I've started to write my first book at 16 ... but then ... realizing i could not publish it ... i've abandoned the idea of being a ... writer.
20 years later ... i've started to write again ... believing i will finally succeed ... but i've failed one more time ... not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later ... i've started one more time to write ... but this time ... more as a therapy.
It's what i've defined as ... self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas ... that were a lot related to me ... and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts ... in essays ... becoming this way ... maybe not a writer .... but what many define as ... an essayist.
This is not a poet ... and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry ... but is still expressing his thoughts ... into a similar way ... as a poet.
And is not a writer ... cause have not the ability to write for too long time ... about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist... either.
I am just an ordinary person ... that could be better defined ... as a thinker.
Analyzing ... and defining my life ... practicing this process called ... self therapy ... i started to understand life ... and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i've wrote ... and wrote ... and wrote ... realizing one day that i've published tens of books .... not really understanding how the hell I've succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing ... as a therapy.
I could even say ... it's a simple way of understanding who we are ... but also a process that could help us ... heal our souls.
I personally continue to ... write.
It's in fact ... a non ending story that ... at least for myself ... will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all ... i am glad ... i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey ... not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist... but ...
Well .... most probably... i am on a good path.
And ... i would dare to recommend to everyone ... all what i am doing today.
