or, An Epoch of Rest
Being Some Chapters From a Utopian Romance
by
William Morris
Chapter 1
Discussion and Bed
Up at the League, says a friend, there had been one night a brisk
conversational discussion, as to what would happen on the Morrow of
the Revolution, finally shading off into a vigorous statement by
various friends of their views on the future of the fully-developed
new society.
Says our friend: Considering the subject, the discussion was
good-tempered; for those present being used to public meetings and
after-lecture debates, if they did not listen to each others' opinions
(which could hardly be expected of them), at all events did not always
attempt to speak all together, as is the custom of people in ordinary
polite society when conversing on a subject which interests them. For
the rest, there were six persons present, and consequently six
sections of the party were represented, four of which had strong but
divergent Anarchist opinions. One of the sections, says our friend, a
man whom he knows very well indeed, sat almost silent at the beginning
of the discussion, but at last got drawn into it and finished by
roaring out very loud, and damning all the rest for fools; after which
befell a period of noise, and then a lull, during which the aforesaid
section, having said good-night very amicably, took his way home by
himself to a western suburb, using the means of travelling which
civilisation has forced upon us like a habit. As he sat in that
vapour-bath of hurried and discontented humanity, a carriage of the
underground railway, he, like others stewed discontentedly, while in
self-reproachful mood he turned over the many excellent and conclusive
arguments which though they lay at his fingers' ends, he had forgotten
in the just past discussion. But this frame of mind he was so used to,
that it didn't last him long, and after a brief discomfort, caused by
disgust with himself for having lost his temper (which he was also
well used to), he found himself musing on the subject-matter of
discussion, but still discontentedly and unhappily. "If I could but
see it!"
As he formed the words, the train stopped at his station, five
minutes' walk from his own house, which stood on the banks of the
Thames, a little way above an ugly suspension bridge. He went out of
the station, still discontented and unhappy, muttering "If I could but
see it! if I could but see it!" but had not gone many steps toward the
river before (says our friend who tells the story) all that discontent
and trouble seemed to slip off him.
It was a beautiful night of early winter, the air just sharp enough to
be refreshing after the hot room and the stinking railway carriage.
The wind, which had lately turned a point or two north of west, had
blown the sky clear of all cloud save a light fleck of two which went
swiftly down the heavens. There was a young moon halfway up the sky,
and as the home-farer caught sight of it, tangled in the branches of a
tall old elm, he could scarce bring to his mind the shabby London
suburb where he was, and he felt as if he were in a pleasant country
place--pleasanter, indeed, than the deep country was as he had known
it.
He came right down to the river-side, and lingered a little, looking
over the low wall to note the moon-lit river, near upon high water, go
swirling and glittering up to Cheswick Eyot; as for the ugly bridge
below, he did not notice it or t hink of it, except when for a moment
(says our friend) it stuck him that he missed the row of lights
down-stream. Then he turned to his house door and let himself in; and
even as he shut the door to, disappeared all remembrance of that
brilliant logic and foresight which had so illuminated the recent
discussion; and of the discussion itself there remained no trace, save
a vague hope, that was now become a pleasure, for days of peace and
rest, and cleanness and smiling goodwill.
In this mood he tumbled into bed, and fell asleep after his wont, in
two minutes' time; but (contrary to his wont) woke up again not long
after in that curiously wide-awake condition which sometimes surprises
even good sleepers; a condition uder which we feel all our wits
preternaturally sharpened, while all the miserable muddles we have
ever got into, all the disgraces and losses of our lives, will insist
on thrusting themselves forward for the consideration of those
sharpened wits.
In this state he lay (says our friend) till he had almost begun to
enjoy it; till the tale of his stupidities amused him, and the
entanglements before him, which he saw so clearly, began to shape
themselves into an amusing story for him.
He heard one o'clock strike then two and then three; after which he
fell asleep again. Our friend says that from that sleep he awoke once
more, and afterwards went through such surprising adventures that he
thinks that they should be told to our comrades, and indeed the public
in general, and therefore he proposes to tell them now. But, says he,
I think it would be better if I told them in the first person, as if
it were myself who had gone through them; which, indeed, will be the
easier and more natural to me, since I understand the feeling and
desires of the comrade of whom I am telling better than any one else
in the world does.