indigo: the color of grief

joy and lament of a 

human being

theologian

father

fashioning new ideas about the divine 

within the painful loss of his daughter

within the constraints of his own intelligence

within the constraints of what religion 

had been telling him his whole life

some of which was good and 

some of which wasn’t

good

it’s a way forward

where forward means the

interaction of

past choices 

past events

and personal agency 

in this moment

and this moment

and … yes, this moment

it’s the hope

on the underside of grief

like the pilot fish

with the shark

around the whale

within a section of ocean

an ecosystem of 

depth and light 

and slow-motion shadows

oceanographic poetry 

that breaks the surface from 

time to time

that breaks one’s heart from 

time to time

indigo is

the color of grief

for its gradation of 

sapphires and violets

descending into violence

or ascending into lightness

the beauty of which is found

in both extremes 

entanglement

the divine infused within the whole

the hole infused within the divine

read it for cursing

for weeping

for laughing

read it for mourning

read it 

for the 

world 

is on fire