The sickness of … my reality: essays about duality

Spiritual essays Book 37 · Adrian G Dumitru
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I have this obsession of writing about love relationships and the weird algorithms which are defining the dynamic of such a story.

And ... i do it by years.

Writing my own life experiences ... being obviously that i am actually defining the nonsense in its absolute form.

So ... i keep writing ... all being sort of a journal.

Any new day ... is a new experience ... and i allow my soul to be part of that.

Many believe ... i am already insane ... cause any story is about love and hate, not being so clear if i actually love or ... hate that woman.

But ... yes ... i am confused.

So ... as a process of self therapy, trying in fact to heal my broken lost soul ... i continue analysing and defining all the micro elements of the love story.

Hoping ... i'll find the answer and i'll just stop the emotional balance love-hate ... which i am feeling everyday.

But ... truth be told ... there is nothing to be redefined.

I write all into my books.

... never being ashamed of my thoughts, feelings and emotions.

Looking ... so lost.

Being ... in fact ... so lost.

And so ... incoherent.

Like many, many others.

Drowned into ... the illusion.

I have this obsession of writing about love relationships and the weird algorithms which are defining the dynamic of such a story. And ... i do it by years. Writing my own life experiences ... being obviously that i am actually defining the nonsense in its absolute form. So ... i keep writing ......

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12 reviews
Victoria Rubby
June 16, 2025
I love how the author embraces the irrationality of love. He doesn't try to explain it — he just feels it and shares that feeling through mesmerizing prose. A great read for thinkers and feelers alike.
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Sam Sisavath
June 16, 2025
This book feels like reading someone's soul laid bare. Each page invites you into a personal universe where thoughts, feelings, and memories blend into something almost spiritual. A truly unique and hauntingly beautiful experience
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Teehaanah Joel
June 16, 2025
Raw, honest, and deeply introspective. Adrian Gabriel Dumitru captures the chaotic beauty of love, heartbreak, and human connection in a way that's both poetic and philosophical. A must-read for anyone fascinated by the emotional algorithms of relationships
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I've started to write my first book at 16 ... but then ... realizing i could not publish it ... i've abandoned the idea of being a ... writer.

20 years later ... i've started to write again ... believing i will finally succeed ... but i've failed one more time ... not getting the success i was chasing for.

Another 5 years later ... i've started one more time to write ... but this time ... more as a therapy.

It's what i've defined as ... self therapy.

I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas ... that were a lot related to me ... and my own soul.

I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.

I was simple writing my thoughts ... in essays ... becoming this way ... maybe not a writer .... but what many define as ... an essayist.

This is not a poet ... and not a writer.

Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry ... but is still expressing his thoughts ... into a similar way ... as a poet.

And is not a writer ... cause have not the ability to write for too long time ... about the same subject.

But maybe i am not an essayist... either.

I am just an ordinary person ... that could be better defined ... as a thinker.

Analyzing ... and defining my life ... practicing this process called ... self therapy ... i started to understand life ... and the way to better paths which i should follow.

And i've wrote ... and wrote ... and wrote ... realizing one day that i've published tens of books .... not really understanding how the hell I've succeeded doing that.

Today i dare to recommend writing ... as a therapy.

I could even say ... it's a simple way of understanding who we are ... but also a process that could help us ... heal our souls.

I personally continue to ... write.

It's in fact ... a non ending story that ... at least for myself ... will probably continue for the rest of my life.

But over all ... i am glad ... i am doing it.

I continue my philosophical journey ... not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist... but ...

Well .... most probably... i am on a good path.

And ... i would dare to recommend to everyone ... all what i am doing today.

I've started to write my first book at 16 ... but then ... realizing i could not publish it ... i've abandoned the idea of being a ... writer. 20 years later ... i've started to write again ... believing i will finally succeed ... but i've failed one more time ... not getting the success i was ch...

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