Exploring INSANITY: essays. self-therapy sessions
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And ... i become angry.
Annoyed.
Frustrated.
Then unhappy ... sad and always ending up ... being depressed.
But ... it's even worse than this ... cause seeing my life becoming a real hell ... i literally lose my minds.
Feeling so deeply that i don't really have any real chance to recover ... and heal myself.
Unfortunately ... this huge handicap of not being able to create the reality from my silly mind ... becomes into the end ... an advantage.
A huge one.
So ... i accept that i have no control at all ... on what is actually going on.
I also accept that i had become insane.
I accept even my stupid annoying inappropriate crazy behaviour ... and ...
Well ... not really having what to do ... i just smile ... and continue writing.
Yes ... writing the same craps again and again ... but having the unconscious sensation that all what i am doing ... it's stupid.
Really stupid.
Most probably ... I must simply stop myself ... control something that most certainly ... i can't really control at all.
And ... allow all to happen.
Be the way it is.
So ... my only real conclusion ... after pretending so much that i am sort of a scientist which is studying insanity ... analysing also a lot my own life in self therapy sessions ... is that the wisest thing i can do on the stage of reality ... is to let things be the way they are.
And stop trying again and again to synchronise ... my fantasies with the real life ... cause it's pure nonsense.
Useless.
Stupid.
And certainly not healthy ... for my mind and my soul.
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I've started to write my first book at 16 ... but then ... realizing i could not publish it ... i've abandoned the idea of being a ... writer.
20 years later ... i've started to write again ... believing i will finally succeed ... but i've failed one more time ... not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later ... i've started one more time to write ... but this time ... more as a therapy.
It's what i've defined as ... self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas ... that were a lot related to me ... and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts ... in essays ... becoming this way ... maybe not a writer .... but what many define as ... an essayist.
This is not a poet ... and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry ... but is still expressing his thoughts ... into a similar way ... as a poet.
And is not a writer ... cause have not the ability to write for too long time ... about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist... either.
I am just an ordinary person ... that could be better defined ... as a thinker.
Analyzing ... and defining my life ... practicing this process called ... self therapy ... i started to understand life ... and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i've wrote ... and wrote ... and wrote ... realizing one day that i've published tens of books .... not really understanding how the hell I've succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing ... as a therapy.
I could even say ... it's a simple way of understanding who we are ... but also a process that could help us ... heal our souls.
I personally continue to ... write.
It's in fact ... a non ending story that ... at least for myself ... will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all ... i am glad ... i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey ... not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist... but ...
Well .... most probably... i am on a good path.
And ... i would dare to recommend to everyone ... all what i am doing today.
